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This post is pretty over due. My birthday was 8 days ago and I was meaning to chuck it up on the actual day but oh well.

So I’m 2o now. For some reason, I was massively dreading it all year. The year zoomed by crazy fast and I was counting down the months in my head til the day.

It hit and I was just like, “meh.” No biggie really. I guess I didn’t make it a biggie myself even though in my head it seemed big to me.

It’s just like  everyone says I guess. You’re not a teen anymore, etc. But to me, it’s a big deal because it’s another step forward to being more of a responsible adult. More of an upstanding gentleman in society, capable of looking after those he loves and cares for.

A lot of stuff has happened recently, especially in terms of relationships. People have been hurt needlessly, and, even though I told myself it won’t happen again, I find myself regretting my actions.

Shit happens. The mark of a true man is someone who can move on despite whatever shit’s happened to them. It’s about turning a bad situation into a good one. I’ve yet to be able to convert some of my bad decisions into something good.

This blog’s different in the sense that even though I meant for it to be my blog on Affiliate Marketing, it’s also a personal blog where I ramble about stuff. I like rambling.

In terms of Affiliate Marketing, a lot of you don’t know that it’s something I plan to make it big in. Only a few people know. I’m a dreamer, what can I say… but yeah. It’s going to be different in the sense that it’ll be about a regular guy who doesn’t have money exploding into his commission accounts. Quite the opposite really. I guess it’ll be more relatable to in that sense.

The main purpose of this post was to write down a list of things that I’d learnt in my final year of as a teen. I guess a list of things I should take into the next big phase of my life. I want to write down 10 things, but we’ll see how many there will be:

1. Think twice before you do something and three times before you say something.

2. Just do it. If you’re scared, by doing it, it’ll be less scary next time. Do it, kill indecisiveness and live with the consequences.

3. Don’t worry so much. If it’s out of your control, just move on.

4. Honesty is the best policy. However, this doesn’t mean that you have to tell everyone what’s going through your mind at the moment.

5. Everything is perception-based. You control you. No one else does.

6. Sometimes it’s not about being sure. A lot of the questions in the world don’t have clear cut answers. Only half answers. Just live it out, and wait for an answer to arise. Don’t turn it into a problem.

7. Women want certainty. So don’t say anything until you’re certain.

8. The meaning of life is family and friends. Because they make you who you are. They define your character. You live out your interactions with them every day.

Hm. Eight’s not bad. There’s quite a bit of overlap there. But yeah. I just wanted to add a new post before I put the link for this up on my Facebook Page.

My birthday’s the 2nd of October. Over here, it’s already the 3rd of May, but I still feel inclined to talk about what I’ve done for each month that I’ve been 19 for.

I have 5 months left of being 19. 5 months left of being a teenager. It’s scary, turning 20. All the dreams I have of me being this responsible adult and everything are suddenly shoved down onto me whether I like it or not.

As in, I dream myself to be this perfect person, and instead I’m faced with the cruel reality that I’m no where near who I want to be.

No matter. I will succeed nonetheless. This sort of maturity only comes with time, I guess. I just don’t want to end up 25 and unhappy with life (even worse). I mean, 20’s still young. It’s just that when you hear 20, you think, man, that’s so old. Then suddenly you are 20 and then what do you do?

At any rate, I’ve dropped in productivity, especially regarding uni homework. I’ve contemplated dropping out. I’m spending more and more time doing AM when I’m not supposed to. I’m not juggling my priorities well.

But it’s not all negative. I’ve started planning AM better, dreaming less, doing more. It’s just with uni, you sort of don’t have the time you wish you had to do what you want? It’s a pretty crappy excuse, but yeah.

Anyway, I’m just rambling now. I’ve got to do less of that when I’m 20. Can only be decisive. Bleh.